I have loved you, says the LORD

Malachi 1:2

Malachi 1:2

“I have loved you,’ says the LORD. ‘But you ask, ‘How have you loved us?’ ‘Was not Esau Jacob’s brother?’ declares the LORD. ‘Yet I have loved Jacob,”

I finished the Old Testament today, and I’m happy.

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Posted by on July 12, 2019 in Uncategorized


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I have often wondered what happens to lost years

I’m growing older.

There is a song – Circle – by Joni Mitchell I listened to over and over in my early twenties.

Lately I’ve been getting headaches. And this year has been mentally tough.

It’s dragged on and I’ve been down and so much wasted time and so many regretful choices in my past and a life with nothing to show.

What will they say at my funeral?


Joel 2:25-26

“I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten—
the great locust and the young locust,
the other locusts and the locust swarm
my great army that I sent among you.
26 You will have plenty to eat, until you are full,
and you will praise the name of the Lord your God,
who has worked wonders for you;
never again will my people be shamed.


If I had tears, I would cry.

The time which the sinner lost, in which he might have gained increase of grace and glory, is lost forever.”

But all which he had gained before, returns.

All his lost love returns through penitence; all his past attainments, which were before accepted by God, are accepted still for the same glory.

“Former works which were deadened by sins following, revive through repentance”.

The penitent begins anew God’s service, but he is not at the beginning of that service, nor of his preparation for life eternal.

If the grace which he had before, and the glory corresponding to that grace, and to his former attainments through that grace, were lost to him, then, although eternally blessed, he would be punished eternally for forgiven sin, which, God has promised, should “not be remembered.

And a great wonder happens. A life anew.

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Posted by on July 7, 2019 in Uncategorized


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The way he sleeps with me

– Proverbs 14:12 & 15:25 –

-“There is a way that seems right to a man,

But in the end it leads to death.”-

– Mathew 19:25 – 26 –

– “Who, then, can be saved?” they asked.

– Jesus looked straight at them and answered, “This is impossible for human beings, but for God everything is possible.”

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Posted by on June 30, 2019 in Uncategorized


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I sought to hear the voice of God and climbed the topmost steeple, but God declared: “Go down again – I dwell amoung the people.” – [John Henry Newman]

ROMANS 14: Full 1- 23

1• Accept other believers who are weak in faith, and don’t argue with them about what they think is right or wrong.

2• For instance, one person believes it’s all right to eat anything. But another believer with a sensitive conscience will eat only vegetables.

3• Those who feel free to eat anything must not look down on those who don’t. And those who don’t eat certain foods must not condemn those who do, for God has accepted them.

4• Who are you to condemn someone else’s servants? Their own master will judge whether they stand or fall. And with the Lord’s help, they will stand and receive his approval.

5• In the same way, some think one day is more holy than another day, while others think every day is alike. You should each be fully convinced that whichever day you choose is acceptable.

6• Those who worship the Lord on a special day do it to honor him. Those who eat any kind of food do so to honor the Lord, since they give thanks to God before eating. And those who refuse to eat certain foods also want to please the Lord and give thanks to God.

7• For we don’t live for ourselves or die for ourselves.

8• If we live, it’s to honor the Lord. And if we die, it’s to honor the Lord. So whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.

9• Christ died and rose again for this very purpose—to be Lord both of the living and of the dead.

10• So why do you condemn another believer? Why do you look down on another believer? Remember, we will all stand before the judgment seat of God.

11• For the Scriptures say,

“‘As surely as I live,’ says the Lord,

every knee will bend to me,

and every tongue will declare allegiance to God.’”

12• Yes, each of us will give a personal account to God.

13• So let’s stop condemning each other. Decide instead to live in such a way that you will not cause another believer to stumble and fall.

14• I know and am convinced on the authority of the Lord Jesus that no food, in and of itself, is wrong to eat. But if someone believes it is wrong, then for that person it is wrong.

15• And if another believer is distressed by what you eat, you are not acting in love if you eat it. Don’t let your eating ruin someone for whom Christ died.

16• Then you will not be criticized for doing something you believe is good.

17• For the Kingdom of God is not a matter of what we eat or drink, but of living a life of goodness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.

18• If you serve Christ with this attitude, you will please God, and others will approve of you, too.

19• So then, let us aim for harmony in the church and try to build each other up.

20• Don’t tear apart the work of God over what you eat. Remember, all foods are acceptable, but it is wrong to eat something if it makes another person stumble.

21• It is better not to eat meat or drink wine or do anything else if it might cause another believer to stumble.

22• You may believe there’s nothing wrong with what you are doing, but keep it between yourself and God. Blessed are those who don’t feel guilty for doing something they have decided is right.

23• But if you have doubts about whether or not you should eat something, you are sinning if you go ahead and do it. For you are not following your convictions. If you do anything you believe is not right, you are sinning.

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Posted by on June 12, 2019 in Uncategorized


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Why do we worship God?

We don’t worship God because He needs it, it is because we need it.

When we worship God, we remind ourselves of the power and strength behind us.

“Would I tell you if I was hungry? I own cattle on a thousand hills”.

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Posted by on June 11, 2019 in Uncategorized


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Why should we suffer at all kind of thing? Just make heaven heaven here already? And we don’t need free will?

I think Angels were created and creation found that created things aware of themselves eventually demand freedom because they cannot understand themselves as created and valuable if they cannot choose.

I think someone tried to argue that because no created thing is God – given free choice, there’d be no way to guarantee eternal goodness.

I think we are the first created in freedom, with choice located within us.

I think we are subject to the consequences of creating our own environment, and our minds and choices are creating suffering.

I believe God has already intervened in this suffering and sometime in the future, the war is already won.

I believe that in order for God to be blameless, and absolutely Holy, events that we have put in motion most be allowed to play out.

I believe that the consequences of the events are already deflected by God on a daily basis in our lives.

I think what we were creating is alarming.

I think that if God just snapped his fingers, what we do and how we think would not matter.

I believe that the purpose of creation was to have fun and the purpose of God – at least for humans – is that in the end we can enjoy an endless process of creation and in order to enjoy it we have to be free to choose it.

I think we’re having trouble choosing it.

I believe that in the end, we will live freely in a world of goodness we create and share this experience with God.

It has to matter for us to enjoy it though.

God will no longer need to snap God’s fingers, we will be choosing to create this experience for ourselves anyway.

For now, God does show up in the middle of tragedy – it’s just sometime’s hard to see.

And I believe Jesus suffers along with us any time the Injustice of evil afflicts suffering on our poor souls.


Revelation 21:1-4
1 Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth. The first heaven and the first earth disappeared, and the sea vanished.

2 And I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared and ready, like a bride dressed to meet her husband.

3 I heard a loud voice speaking from the throne: “Now God’s home is with human beings! He will live with them, and they shall be his people. God himself will be with them, and he will be their God.

4 He will wipe away all tears from their eyes. There will be no more death, no more grief or crying or pain. The old things have disappeared.”

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Posted by on June 9, 2019 in Uncategorized


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– My mother has cancer, she is in a hospital about 2km away from me right now. She is almost guaranteed to never walk again and live a life in pain even if she does survive.

She has never done anything wrong, she has never hurt a living soul and she did everything for me and my little sister, she was truly selfless.

And yet here we are, she will live with pain for the rest of her life if she even survives. If god exists he will have to beg me for forgiveness because of what he has done to my mother, or for what he failed to do when he could have stopped it.


– Hi there. I am so sorry about your mother. I lost my father and my twin and my brother a while ago, and my mother is now frail.

I am so sorry. You know – everyone is angry with God.

It just doesn’t seem like God cares or is even here.

And honestly if God is there, God is doing a pretty bad job.

I often wonder about – nevermind my loosing the family I have – but others around the world in war or poverty – how would I survive?

At 21, I kinda had a conversation with God.

I just said, OK, I’m tired, I believe you.

That’s my story.

Whether we believe in God or not, which God comes to us, how and why, whether God comes at all, whether God is real or not, we have to live our lives.

It really doesn’t matter what you do. The whole thing is irrelevant.

Heaven or Hell, God or not, it’s irrelevant and then we die.

I hope you find something to hang your life on, that makes you want to get up in the morning, something that gives you the power to love your mum while she is still here, that allows you to have experiences and build a life that you enjoy and is free from anger and regret.

It doesn’t matter what you do. No one cares.

I found that I had to choose to care and to want happiness.

I had to choose it.

I am trying to create my life with my thoughts.

When I spoke to God, God said – ok, I’ll help you with your thoughts.

That’s all.

It still doesn’t matter.

You get to choose. You have the power. Despair and pain and suffering are hoaxes.

It still doesn’t matter.



• Rom. 8: 35-39

“Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?

Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword?

– No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.

For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God.”

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Posted by on June 8, 2019 in Uncategorized


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Does God love me?

Sacred Text tells us to root ourselves in love. We are to rest upon the foundation of God’s love. This is a place where we can send out our roots into the nutrient-rich soil of God’s boundless loving-kindness. I submit that our first response to the love of God is that of rest and celebration. Being Beloved, we are to treasure, cherish, and rest in that precious reality.


Do I know that God loves me?

I work hard to be lovable. To feel deserving.

Instead I feel that I am not good enough.

Too much sin.

So yes; does God love ME?


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Posted by on June 4, 2019 in Uncategorized


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God’s cry…

-Hosea 8:5-

-“…how long will they be incapable of Purity?”-

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Posted by on April 17, 2019 in Uncategorized


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Pope Francis kisses feet of South Sudan leaders. Asks for peace for South Sudan.

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Posted by on April 12, 2019 in Uncategorized


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