Err…that would have to be me! Yep, the whole shebang! I’m beginning to notice just how self-negative I am!
Is this because I need the attention? Is it because I’m happier when I’m sad? Because I need an excuse to rummage around my sorry life and say, see? Woe is me! What is it?
I am a little bit shocked actually, just looking over my posts. What on earth is going on with my self-esteem?
That’s it then. What’s driving me nuts is this constant nagging at myself, this sudden lack of self-worth.
I tell you what, I’m battling, even now, with what I’ve made of the resolve I had at the beginning of the year. Have I accomplished what I said I would? I’ve done some running, haven’t been to the bars, posted a day.
Now how is it that posting a day has become so important? Surely my life’s ambition can’t be reduced to this! Shriek!
The truth is, with the way LAST year went, I didn’t make too many promises this year. My script and party less. That’s it. I played safe. Can’t fail if there’s nothing there to fail at, can I?
So, why the low self-esteem? Hmmm. I’m gonna sleep on that. It’s a very strange feeling, honestly. And I can’t, for the life of me, find a suitable way to end this post.
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