“Be angry but sin not; commune with your own hearts on your beds and be silent. Offer right sacrifices, and put your trust in the Lord.” (Psalm 4:4-5)
I feel as though I have failed every aspect of todays verse.
I gave up the battle and just didn’t bother about right and wrong, about sacrifice, about being pure.
I was base in my thinking, selfish in my actions, and redolent with life.
I had a ‘what does it matter anyway’ attitude.
I feel it as a loss of faith.
Not caring what happens is not a victory. It’s a defeat.
I’ve learned enough so far to know about Patience, Positivity, Certainty…
I feel non of those things.
So I gave up trying – too difficult.
I missed church AND meditation on Sunday, my run this afternoon, and now I’m heading off to bed.
I am being petulant.
I am sulking and I don’t even know why.
I’ll laugh at myself some other time.