Ah. The twist.
Forgiving others is difficult, forgiving myself, more.
Each requires letting go of something.
Forgiving others involves hurt, and aspects of control and revenge.
Forgiving myself includes self esteem and a healthy self.
These all are dependant on myself – whether or not I forgive.
Asking for forgiveness requires humility.
I have to face something I don’t want to, I have to beat down the need to be right.
I have to allow love for others to come before pride.
It’s really difficult.
And it seems to be the most important aspect of forgiving.
Because if I can’t ask for forgiveness, I cannot expect others to ask for mine.
I do not have the right to ‘be forgiving.’
It’s always difficult.
I sometimes wonder if meeting people over the internet is subject to the same rules as meeting people in life.
So Susan, forgive me for anything I may have done wrong.
I think I may not have given you the time that I rightfully should.
I was hurt by your responses, as I’m sure you were by mine and that was never my intention.
So I hope you can forgive me.