Patience was a difficult week to get through, but it’s left me some room to be a little lighter around disappointment.
I recognised that each of the topics that I cover tend to show up in my life over the course of the week.
It’s because I’m conscious then, about Appreciating, or Forgiving or Patience, and that what I am consciously being aware of, begins to manifest in my life.
So this self-help thing the world seems to have gotten into with the coming of Oprah – I think there IS something to it.
How I think, what I train myself to be aware of, and how I feel about my ability to react, all create what is happening around me.
‘Creating the life you live’, is something that I steer clear of because it doesn’t explain poverty and people in distress, well enough for me.
This week I move into Generosity.
I sensed an immediate tighting of Spirit – a sort of pulling-up-of-the-skirts.
I consider myself to be a generous person, and I recognise generosity as it’s accorded to me.
I also recognise that I am a person in need a lot of the time, and that when I am operating in ‘lack’, I really think hard about every act of generosity.
When I was younger, I was reckless with what I had – but I saw that what I gave out in love, I received many times in return.
This is still true today, but it is more difficult to give when it is clear that my own life is not exactely overflowing.
On the other hand, I am healthy, I am in love, I have family, I am warm, fed and entertained.
So this week of generosity, I am praying for a breakthrough to last a lifetime.
I’d like some freedom in giving. I’d like to be able to give of myself in good spirit, in faith, and from a sense of abundance and gratitude, and I’d like to learn to do this spontaneously and keep it for a lifetime.
I am scared what this may mean – how dealing with generosity is going to show up this week then – and I want to ask for help.
I’m up for this though.
I know what it feels like to be in need, and to have this need met.
Perhaps I know enough about it to meet some needs in others.
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As for the rich in this present age, charge them not to be haughty, nor to set their hopes on the uncertainty of riches, but on God, who richly provides us with everything to enjoy. They are to do good, to be rich in good works, to be generous and ready to share, thus storing up treasure for themselves as a good foundation for the future, so that they may take hold of that which is truly life. – (1 Timothy 6:17-19)