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Do not boast…

This is what the Lord says:

“Let not the wise man (sic; woman…)…boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his riches, but let him who boasts boast about this: that he understands and knows me, that I am the Lord who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight, declare the Lord.”

-Jeremiah 9:23-24-

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Posted by on October 6, 2017 in Uncategorized


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I press on…

“Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take a hold of that for which Christ Jesus took a hold of me.”

“Brothers (sic Sisters), I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.”

“But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”

-philipians 3:12-14-

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Posted by on October 5, 2017 in Uncategorized


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The basis of self-discipline is not the self, you
You’re neck is as long as an antelope,

Good batteries,

The lazy man does not roast his game,






Cheerleader, and

I need a one dance,
Waiting for you,

John Denver,

What’s in the way,
Is the way,

Is my birthright; wait!

Death is a part of it!

Anything I can do as a horse,
Let to water to drink,


Ancestral freedom is free.
They all went to win, Philosophy

And have not looked through the Telescope.

♦Matthew 17:14♦

-When they came to the crowd, a man approached Jesus and knelt before him.-

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Posted by on October 3, 2017 in Uncategorized


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If only

If only I had the time, the

Less ambition, if
Only I knew right from wrong, I

Would change the world, paint it

Pink, I would
Love freely, if

Only I could.

♦Photo – Personal♦

Jeremiah 29:13

-you will seek me and find me when you seek with all of your heart-

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Posted by on October 2, 2017 in Uncategorized


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“…and For This Reason…”


Add to faith, goodness;
To goodness, knowledge;
To knowledge, self-control;
To self-control, perseverance;
To perseverance, clean intention;
To this intention, brotherly-kindness, and
To brotherly-kindness, love.

No-one understands me.
No-one appreciates me.
You never listen.

You never say, “I love you.”

Yet in the cool spaces between impressing others and,
Being pleasant to God, how

Are you?
How am I? And,

Then I know,

How wonderful it is,
To ache to be pleasing to God.

-2nd Peter 1:5-7-

*Photo* – Personal

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Posted by on August 1, 2017 in Uncategorized


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The Rat Only Comes When You Don’t Have A Stick To Kill It.

Damned if you do damned if you don’t,
Hell for leather,

Hammer and tongs,
Till death do us part,

Give up the ghost,
Make hay,

Make babies,
Make love,

Not war,

Dress up,
Come down,

Every dog has its place in the sun,
Rage against the dying of the light,

Strike whilst the iron is hot,
Count your chickens before they hatch,

Against the dying of the day;

There are bigger fish to fry,
A stitch in time saves nine.

Eggs in one basket,
Sunny-Side Up,


When you rattle a snake expect a bite –

Pierre et Seydou and
Kaka Sungura,

Bi Kidude,

An apple a day keeps the doctor away,
The early bird catches the worm;

A bird in hand is worth two in the bush
Two peas in a pod,

Let sleeping dogs lie,
Tomorrow never comes.

Diamonds are forever,

For by your words you will be acquitted,
And by you words you will be condemned.



-short evocative poetry-

For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.” – Matthew

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Posted by on July 23, 2017 in Uncategorized


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Standing Behind People

short poetry words move god philosophy ancestor



You are the,

Sweet wine, the
Product of every,

Human Being,
Behind you, and

That is all;

Behind every,
Great human, is


Behind every great,
Man, a woman

A woman, a man,
A man, a man and,

A woman, a woman, you
Are the original ancestor,


♦Picture – 500Px

-short evocative poetry-



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Posted by on June 26, 2017 in Uncategorized


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short poetry, words move, human promises


Yellow and gold and,

Never make a promise.
You cannot keep them.

Never say I’ll keep a secret, you

You’re human.

Have loving thoughts for yourself,
And for others,

Practice loving deeds for yourself,
And for others,

Lilac spider,
Purple sunrise,

Effervescent stone,

Love wherever,

You can.

-♦Photo – John Foot-♦

-short, evocative poetry-

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Posted by on June 22, 2017 in Uncategorized


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The lie of me


So there has been some time between my hundred days of meditation, and today.

How do I feel?

I’ve been thinking about who I am, and how I construct myself.
I find that I’m an amalgamation of many different lies.

At least, that’s how I feel about myself.

You see, I’ve been anxious for a while now, a low lying anxiousness that registers beneath every waking minute. I am slowly getting through a small book called ‘The Power of Now”

In it, concern with the Past and the Future is the lie that we live everyday, the lie that takes me away from the only moment that matters, which is the Now.

With the Brahma Kumaris, I’ve been learning about Karma, and the suffering I go through as a result of my past actions.

At Easter, I learned about the un-conditional forgiveness Jesus’ death on the cross offers me.

These three notions clash and clang – and sometimes come together – when I think about Justice and Injustice in my life.

Sometimes I can see how Mercy has removed me from consequences of action that I deserved.

Sometimes I feel that I am being punished for some wrong-doing that I have not had the courage to correct.

Sometimes I feel that God cannot affect what happens in the material world…that I cannot understand how the truly awful things that happen to people – who I cannot see, nor claim – can be ‘because they deserve it.’

There are things in my past that I am struggling to be free from.

At the moment it is a financial debt that I find myself in, seemingly, completely out of my control. Taking responsibility for this situation is very difficult. It is as though, looking back, some demon struck at my most vulnerable moment.

I am frustrated and angry because I feel that at these moments, I should be able to count on the protection of God. I am reminded of Footprints in the Sand. (origin disputed)

Yet I find myself in chains and handcuffs with the refrain in the background that I have only myself to blame and can expect resolution to come only from myself.

It has pervaded my every waking moment and drained me of the joy of life and the freedom of being.

And so, that is my past, affecting in a very real way my present.

My future is shrouded in uncertainty. For many years now, it has not been clear to me, where I’m coming from, what fruit has been born by my choices and what opportunities lie ahead. I find no meaning in what is happening to me at the moment.

The other day I was thinking about love. I am so very grateful to have found a man who wants to walk with me, a man whose word I trust. But what do I know of love? What does it feel like? Here I am, and I have someone who can distract me from myself enough for me to find freedom when I’m with him, and yet, is that love or some selfish, mis-guided ecape from life? I love him for what he gives me, who he makes me feel?

Anyway, here I am.

Tired of looking at myself and seeing only need and weakness.
Confused by the lack of fulfillment in my life.
Startled by how afraid I am.

Still, I remain a child of God, and stumble forward even in this fog, clear somehow, that I am accomplishing something, sure that I will feel the Sun and proclaim it to be warm.

I pray that my needs will be met. I pray that mercy with come, that grace will be with me and that faith will hold.

I pray.


Posted by on July 26, 2012 in Uncategorized


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Day One Hundred: What does God say, How do I hear him? Gay in Church



“For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature: And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence [sic] of their error which was meet.” Romans 1:26-27

I’ve had an uneasy week.


Today I went to meditation in the morning…learned about Discernment and Humility.

Discernment is how we choice between this, and that, between understanding humility as pride, penalty or power.

It is the ability to understand the situation and to choose between what is available, what is right, or good or helpful.

I was late getting to church.


As I was driving in, I noticed the security guard at the gate.

I crept into the large tent that serves as shelter and took a chair right at the back.

I had been thinking about giving and money, and having and not having, and had my offering out of my wallet and stuffed into my back pocket.

The American pastor, handsome in a rugged way, but in his sixties – white hair…punctuated movement – was saying something about preaching to the Gentiles, about Pauls message to those ‘outside’ Christ.


I got up, went back outside and chatted with the Guard a while, and then asked him if he’d accept my money.

When I got back in, the American pastor was telling us that the American Ambassador to Kenya had resigned.

The reason was a clash with Obama’s ‘administration.’

It turns out that Pride was celebrated in Kenya last week, as it was elsewhere in the world.

I didn’t know that.


It was celebrated and the American Embassy paid for a whole series of events.


The Ambassador, the Pastor is saying, is a ‘born again’ Christian, and that sometimes God calls us to stand by what we know is right – so he resigned. On Friday.


After the sermon, he took his place outside the tent, by what serves as the entrance. He had to pass right by me on the aisle to get there.

I stood up as church was dismissed, met him at that ‘doorway’, and shook his hand.

He has big hands, strong palms. They are warm.

I shook his big, warm hand firmly enough to get him to really look at me and said,

“This is my Church and I just wanted to tell you that I’m homosexual and I’m here.’

People were backing up behind me, wanting their turn to shake his hand – there had been loud grunts of approval and vigorous nodding of heads during his sermon.


Then I walked away.


You know – for me, the questions remain.

I have been homosexual (out) since I was twenty.

I was ‘born again’ when I was twelve.

I understand the discord.


My father was a good Christian and it wrecked our relationship. What else could he have done? How terrible it must have been.

When I learned who I was, I tried to kill myself.


Good Christians everywhere are asked to choose between what the bible has to say and what their hearts are telling them.

It’s an impossible position.


I get into my car, wave at the smiling security guard letting me out and drive way.

On the road God says to me…discern the Truth.


I buy two meat pies from the supermarket on the way home, certain that Simon will be hungry.


Thank you all for having walked with me One Hundred Days

This is the last post in the series.


May God be with you all.


Posted by on July 1, 2012 in Uncategorized


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