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The Pygmy God

-Numbers 11:23-

-“The LORD answered Moses, “Is the LORD’S arm too short? You will now see whether or not what I say will come true for you”-

This Old Testament God is hilarious at times. The sayings! I love this one.

The story though is about being too short sighted to see the blessings around me.

The chapter also has fascinating insights on manna. Anyway, the Israelites asked for meat… And boy did they get it!

I am reminded to be grateful first for what I have, and to be responsible with it, before asking for more.

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Posted by on February 18, 2018 in Uncategorized


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One was born hairy

  • -Genesis 25:25-

-The first to come out was red, and his whole body was like a hairy garment; so they named him Esau. –

  1. I don’t know what to say.
  2. Sexuality is a hard thing.
  3. Only if sexuality is a thing to begin with.

Human Beings are not things.

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Posted by on February 12, 2018 in Uncategorized


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On Boasting

-1 Corinthians 6-7-

-Now Brothers [sisters], I have applied these things to myself and Apollos for your benefit, so that you may learn from us the meaning of the saying, “Do not go beyond what is written.”

Then you will not take pride in one man over against another.

For what makes you different from anyone else? What do you have that you did not receive? And if you did receive it, why do you boast about though you did not?-

There are times in my life when, confronted with the uncertainty of planning a future, I rest on what has already been accomplished – only to find that this also is stressful because of what comes with it; that is, what was not accomplished.

The temptation to fill myself with ‘my accomplishments’ then becomes real, and boasting begins as a cushion against failure.

Boasting is complicit with failure and so, both are illusions and lies.

Already you have all you want.

My failure to accept my Attainments leads to arrogance because of the feeling that I must fight to show what I have attained in order to project accomplishment.


The kingdom of God is not a matter of talk but of power.

And so there is ease and great power in submitting and surrendering all plans so that I can be free in the outcomes, whatever they may be.

Inevitably the outcomes are good because God is the basis of goodness.

And in that light, goodness provides the feeling of attainment as an encouragement, and an enjoyment, and a balm for the main unanswerable questions in any life; why it is born and why it dies.

In this way I find upliftment and pleasure in living my life and trying, to the best of my ability, to help those around me also, to be happy in life.

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Posted by on February 9, 2018 in Uncategorized


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Freedom to be

“Each one should test his [her] own actions. Then he [her] can take pride in themselves, without comparing themselves to anybody else…”

-Galatians 6:4-

  1. The purpose of Criticism or Discipline or Punishment is simply to restore
  2. The attitude is one of Service not of Defence nor Attack
  3. Act in obedience to Spirit, eschewing selfishness and instead exhibiting wholesomeness
  4. Act in Humility
  5. Seek Counsel
  6. Accept responsibility for giving AND/OR receiving correction
  7. Discern the Spirit of the occasion and of the participants – is it good?
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Posted by on January 26, 2018 in Uncategorized


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Tears &; Worship

-C. S. Lewis-

“We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite Joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea.

We are far too easily pleased”

“…His {Her} master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant!..”
“…You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!…”

-Matthew 25:21, 23-

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Posted by on January 24, 2018 in Uncategorized


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A Good Read (20mins)

“A couple of days ago, I was having a conversation with a dear friend who is no stranger to Nairobi’s night life. He was talking to me about B-Club -which I hear is the holy grail of the high-end partying experience in this city. You all know me. I’m a village boy. The closest I come to partying in Nairobi is listening to Ohangla artists in dingy pubs and drinking beer. The most expensive drink I’ve ever bought is a bottle of Johnny Walker Black Label.

I’ve been to Space Club along Ngong Road once and I hated the place. Nothing nauseates me as a crowd of college girls screaming their voices hoarse against a backdrop of loud shady music, delicately balancing their drinks as they stagger in their stilettos. Ain’t it fascinating how these young women manage to hold their glasses still as they stagger in six-inch heels? It beats the Newtonian laws of Gravitational Physics!

So my friend here tells me how he went to B-Club, bought a bottle of Hennessy XO worth 27,000 shillings and still couldn’t find a seat. I was shocked beyond words. How does anyone buy a bottle of alcohol worth 27,000? It reminded me of the Late Captain Apollo Malowa, our Luo son who I hear could buy Hennessy XO at B-Club every weekend but could not build a home for himself. “Class!” My friend quipped. “I’m a man of class. When I go to places like B-Club, I drink the finest Cognac. Hennessy XO is the finest Cognac you’ll ever find.” One thing about me is that I love information. I ask questions.

Later that evening, I did a bit of research about Cognac. Cognac is exclusively produced in France and includes brands like Rèmy Martin, Martel, Hennessy, and Courvoisier. What I found shocking is that although France produces this exclusive drink, the French do not touch Cognac. As a matter of fact, 97 percent of the Cognac France produces is meant for the export market. Now the United States is the largest importer of Cognac and guess who the largest consumer is? Black America.

Cognac is so important to Black American culture that Hip-Hop artists compose songs about it. Remember P Diddy’s “Pass the Courvoisier?” Of all the Cognac brands in Black America, Hennessy is the most visible. Why do they consume it? Why is it that from time to time, a Kenyan is likely to brag on social media about how they bought Hennessy XO and even show us pictures of their bill at the end of the night? Because Hennessy is a status symbol, a signature brand, a luxury item. And we Black people are preoccupied with status symbols.

France produces Hennessy but the French don’t drink it. Instead they sell it to the poor, ignorant, black man so that he can brag about it. I’m not done yet so please stay with me to the end and you’ll get my point.

White people own 12 times more wealth than Blacks all over the world. Yet according to a study by CNN Money, the Black man is six times more likely to buy a Mercedes Benz than the White Man.

When a Black Man buys a luxury item such as the Jaguar, his wealth is probably one-third less than what is owned by a White Man in the same social class. Black people are Gucci’s primary market. They are likely to buy more Louis Vuitton compared to White people. Yet their total wealth is only one-tenth of what White people own. How did this happen?

White people knew that the only way they could maintain their dominance in the world was to mess us psychologically. In the West, they put us into slavery. In Africa, they colonised us. While under slavery and colonial rule, the White Man taught us that we were inferior, that we had no sense of worth.

Later, the same person who enslaved us gave us freedom in the name of democracy. But they didn’t fix the mess they had put in our heads.

With the advent of market liberalization, they knew that they had to retain the upper hand in global economics. Whereas they had freed us from physical chains, they kept us in economic slavery.

They introduced status symbols and told us that the only way you could be like the White Man was to drive a Mercedes Benz.

The only way you can have a sense of worth is to put on Louis Vuitton and drink Hennessy.

So the French produce Hennessy -which they do not touch- and sell it to us. The Germans produce Mercedes Benz and ship most of their units to Black America and Africa. Nike produces Air Jordans, put a Black face on it, and sells it to Black kids. We are always giving them our money and boasting as we do it. We are slaves. We are still in chains.

What is even more saddening is that while we are taught that financial success is characterised by consumerist indulgence and the worship of luxury, the White Man teaches his children that financial success is defined by conspicuous production and the worship of labour.

That it is not about how much you spend but how much you make.

In White communities, productivity is the symbol of class power -not consumption. What we need to do as Africans is get rid of this culture of “arrivalism” which teaches our children to work hard and drive Mercedes Benzes, slave the whole week and drink Hennessy XO on Friday.

We should teach our children the important principles of financial literacy which is a critical component of the foundation of economic development -that of conspicuous production and not conspicuous consumption.

Otherwise we’ll keep on being the Niggers bound by economic chains.”


-astonishing kenyan writing-

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Posted by on January 24, 2018 in Uncategorized


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And not to see death…

“…Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men, because you know that the Lord will reward everyone for whatever good he [she] does, whether he [she] is slave or free.”

-Ephesians 6:7-8-

The Third Book of Enoch

These recount how Enoch was taken up to Heaven and was appointed guardian of all the celestial treasures, chief of the archangels, and the immediate attendant on God’s throne.

He was subsequently taught all secrets and mysteries and, with all the angels at his back, fulfils of his own accord whatever comes out of the mouth of God, executing His decrees.

Much esoteric literature like the 3rd Book of Enoch identifies Enoch as the Metatron, the angel which communicates God’s word.

In consequence, Enoch was seen, by this literature, and the Rabbinic kabbala of Jewish mysticism, as having been the one which communicated God’s revelation to Moses, in particular, the dictator of the Book of Jubilees.

And so the dream and promise of Heaven. Is this as clear to me as the dream and promises of a brand New Car? A bigger TV? A faster phone?

Is Heaven a clear reward for me? What is heaven anyway, is it the gold paving that I yearn for?

Or is there something more to the promise of Heaven, than walls encrusted with Diamond?

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Posted by on January 22, 2018 in Uncategorized


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Confrontation & Rebuke

Some of us are more comfortable with confrontation than others, but there are times when confrontation is the most loving thing we can do for another person.

Similarly, being rebuked by another person can be uncomfortable, but our openness and willingness to respond to correction are critical components of our character.

When someone criticises me, I lash out, shut down, hold grudges and get discouraged.

When I have to tell the truth about what someone is being or doing, I tend to say nothing and harbor ill-will.

Insult and hurt are the biggest lies we face in life. The reality is that we really cannot hurt another nor be fearful of being hurt.

That does not mean we act with callousness – but ‘being hurt’ puts blame on another person, and ‘feeling afraid to hurt’ dishonors myself.

What I would give to be free of the fear of Rebuke! Yet; how often to I listen to the Gentle word of God’s discipline, and how do I respond?

As a soul, I long to be pure. As a human, I have many faults. Learning to recognize, listen to and respond to God when life is correcting me, is a difficult place to stand.

Yet giving myself wholly to God allows me to release pain and worry and rest in my Faith.

This is a good one for you Kenny; read it again next year.

  • -Proverbs 15:31-
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Posted by on January 19, 2018 in Uncategorized


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Then the land had rest from war


My Gardener is enthusiastic.

He kills all the weeds in my garden,
Sweating conviction,

In purple droplets,
Muscles wet,

In the midday sun, he
Slaughters them,

My perfect weeds I spent so long cultivating,

And whites ones,
Jewish and Muslim,


Now the name of Hebron formerly was Kiriath-arba.
(Arba  was the greatest man among the Anakim.)
And the land had rest from war, 


My gardener has turned into a terrorist,
And my weeds are no longer safe.

-Joshua 14:15-

Photo – Gay Israel on Pininterest

-short evocative poetry-

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Posted by on January 18, 2018 in Uncategorized


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Blessings and Discipline

“…You will be blessed in the City and blessed in the Country.
Your Children will be blessed, and the crops of your land and the young of your livestock – the calves of your herds and the lambs of your flocks.”

“Your basket and your kneading trough will be blessed.”

You will be blessed when you come in and blessed when you go out…”

-Deuteronomy 28:3-6 & Jeremiah 29:11;13-

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Posted by on January 16, 2018 in Uncategorized


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